Thank you for the ask and sorry it took so long to respond, Tumblr is shit at notifying me of things.
yellow: if you could have any view from your bedroom window what would you choose? what’s your favorite thing to do on a sunny day? what do you consider lucky? what made you smile today? what makes you happy?
If I could have any view from my bedroom window, I’d want to see lots of trees and greenery. Maybe a small creek. Something just…natural. And foggy!
My favorite thing to do on a sunny day is…not go outside. That’s how I end up burnt. If it’s not too sunny, I like to take the dog to the marina and play pokemon go.
Like for me personally, I consider the number 2 to be kinda lucky. Other than that, I don’t know. I’m an unlucky person so the concept of luck is just beyond me.
My animals made me smile today. Also I got my first brand new couch so I think maybe I internally smiled at that.
Things that make me happy: dungeons and dragons on sundays with friends, coffee, a good book, raccoons, my pets, buying stuff (retail therapy is so real,) and my nephew. I’m sure there’s more things but those are the immediate go to things.
hypothesis: the salt & pepper diner experiment can no longer be conducted as it stands, because everyone is now fully attuned to the opening bars of tom jones’ “what’s new pussycat?”, classically conditioned into a fight-or-flight response. however, this experience can be replicated using 21 back-to-back plays of lou bega’s 1999 hit song “mambo no. 5″, as the general response to “mambo no. 5″ being played twice in a row is not, “hey someone’s playing “mambo no. 5″ again,” but rather, “hey, lou bega’s 1999 hit song “mambo no. 5″ is a lot longer than i first thought.”
So what’s the “It’s Not Unusual” in this situation
So I found out a few months ago that wanting to ‘not exist’ or wishing you could ‘just sleep forever’ is also considered suicidal (specifically suicidal idealization). It shocked me cause I used to think that way when I was younger but had previously thought that being suicidal meant explicitly wanting to die.. but it actually involves wanting to not live too.
I think its an important thing to note cause it might allow someone to realize the severity of their condition earlier.
This was the funniest thing to me. Because I was talking to a counselor, and they were like “Are you suicidal?”
“No not really. But sometimes I don’t want to exist though”
“You do know that’s suicidal ideation?”
“…what?”
I wish I kind of knew before. Like honestly, we know so little about mental health.
Yup yup, it’s not normal to want to disappear, or to feel like you don’t shouldn’t be alive. Or like you’d like to opt out of life totally, even if you don’t necessarily want to “die” per se. If you’d really rather not live, that’s suicidality babe.
you know you’ve made progress when you go from ‘i want to sleep forever’ to ‘i want to be in a coma for a few months so that i can accumulate wealth and wake up better off’
red: how was your first kiss? what do you love about yourself? when’s the last time you warmed your hands in front of a fire? would you rather watch a sunrise or sunset? what’s the best thing about summer?
orange: what makes you feel warm inside? what’s your favorite halloween tradition? what’s the last thing you learned? when’s the last time you felt obsessed? what’s your favorite article of clothing?
yellow: if you could have any view from your bedroom window what would you choose? what’s your favorite thing to do on a sunny day? what do you consider lucky? what made you smile today? what makes you happy?
green: what’s your favorite thing to do outside? do you like camping? what would you spend $1,000 on? what’s your job, or what do you want to do as your job? what’s your favorite article of clothing?
blue: what do you do when you’re sad? what are some things you do when you can’t sleep? what was the best (non-romantic) night you’ve had? what kind of covers do you have on your bed? who is the last person you told a secret to?
purple: what’s your astrological sign? what’s the best piece of advice you ever received? when’s the last time you followed your instincts? what’s your favorite food? what’s your secret dream?
-if you have 1 billion dollars you can spend one dollar a second (or 86,400 dollars a day) and only run out after 31 years
-jeff bezos has a net worth of 112 billion dollars. Assuming he spent 86,000 dollars a day he could live for 3551 years before running out of money
-some of Jeff bezos’ money is invested in things and not easily spendable. Assuming that figure is about 50% of his net worth he will run out of liquid money in 1775 years. If 80% of his money is invested it would be 710 years, at 90% it would be 355 years.
-jeff bezos is 54, assuming he lives to be 90 he has 36 years left to live. If he spends one dollar a second (86400 dollars a day) by the time he dies he will have spent approximately 1.02% of his net worth
-jeff bezos earns an average of 275 million dollars a day. The median salary for an Amazon employee is 28,000 dollars, meaning bezos earns more money in about 10 seconds than his average employee earns in a year
-assuming Jeff bezos continues to earn money at this rate, even if he spends 1 dollar a second, spending more than 3x the money in a day than his average employee earns in a year, he will still die with over 3.7 trillion dollars.
We’ve all seen that Gothel makes Rapunzel come to her for hugs, but today I realized it goes deeper than that. Gothel doesn’t want Rapunzel showing physical affection unless she has been given specific permission. Opening her arms is that unspoken permission.
For example, towards the beginning, when she’s reminding Gothel that it’s her birthday tomorrow, she grabs her arm in exuberance. Gothel is put out and then pries Rapunzel’s hands off her arm, all the while pretending she doesn’t remember (or care) that her birthday - something Rapunzel is extremely excited about - is fast approaching.
She also uses Rapunzel’s need for physical affection, deliberately taunting and “teaching” her with it by pretending to offer it, then taking it away immediately.
The first bazzilionty times I saw this movie, I always assumed Rapunzel was relieved to see Gothel towards the end of Mother Knows Best just because she was scared.
But now I realize it’s not only because she’s scared, but because Gothel is now giving Rapunzel permission to seek the creature comfort of physical contact that she so desperately needs after the gamut of fear she’s run.
Eugene, on the other hand, starts showing physical affection as soon as he starts feeling any affection for Rapunzel at all. He uses it as a comfort. Yet Rapunzel keeps her hands to herself.
It continues when he gives her the little flag, touching the small of her back in an affectionate way. But her hands (and attention) are full at this moment.
In fact, the first time she realizes she’s touching him, and he’s touching her, and there’s affection and enjoyment buzzing between them, she’s the first to pull away.
She’s alarmed at first, then apologetic and sheepish. Sorry I was touching you, Eugene. And he politely takes a step back, tuned in to her discomfort and giving her a little more space.
But that is why the moment on the boat is so important, and why Rapunzel has the reaction she does.
In taking Rapunzel’s hand, out of the blue (as far as she can tell), it’s sending her a clear message that he feels the same about her that she does about him, and that physical affection is both alright and wanted. That he will seek out her attention in a way Gothel never has. And from this moment on, she touches him often, holding hands for the rest of the song, brushing his hair from his face as he lay dying, and never letting go of his head, even after he’d died in her arms. Not to mention kissing him when he lives again, holding hands on the balcony while they wait for her parents and end-of-movie smooching.
